Sweet Nothings

My journal has been very dry in 2008. That’s got to change.

Just a meme… first sentence of the first entry of every month in 2008.

FEBRUARY - Just another dream.
I had an emotionally driven dream last night that caused me to wake up feeling very, very distressed.

MARCH - rant, rant, rant, rant, rant.
I am having such a shitty time on this holiday.

APRIL - Please disappear.
I received a surprise call this evening from someone I was secretly hoping would permanently fade out of my life.

JUNE - Just some randoms.
1. I really can’t believe how much has happened in a span of just one week.

JULY - Girls only night.
I just got home from a pleasant evening with the girls.

AUGUST - Recurring dream.
I have this recurring dream where I am a student who doesn’t keep a timetable and relies on a really rusty memory for class schedules.

OCTOBER - New things
i am trying out my new nokia e71.

DECEMBER - Turn of events.
After a rocky week, we’ve yet again conquered all.

When you said “let’s move forward” I didn’t know I would be doing it alone.

So just for a little update… I am currently on a cruise ship on my very first cruising experience. We are currently docked (is that the term?) at Noumea and just waiting for our shore tour to begin. It has been great! 80% of the crew are Filipino and it totally feels like I am in the Philippines! The food is great and plentiful… the weather has been absolutely beautiful. Anyway, can’t stay long 75 cents per minute is kinda steep.

6 October 2008 Horoscope for Sagittarius:

When it comes to sharing your feelings, you need to start taking a lot more risks. The more you can show your vulnerability to the people you want to be closer to, the faster you will strengthen your relationship. Once you are aware of the boundaries people have, you can talk to them without worrying you are sharing too much or too little.

So we were all engrossed in our own work reading reports and people’s job applications…

Jo: What race is Do?

Me: Yeast!

… I’ve had enough experience in baking to know that yeast raises dough (albeit mine did not rise as it should)… yet I was stumped by the randomness of the question.

We both looked at each other in bemusement before bursting out in fits of laughter. I haven’t laughed that hard in ages.

I have this recurring dream where I am a student who doesn’t keep a timetable and relies on a really rusty memory for class schedules. I always take a guess at which door I should take and at what time for my next class. Most of the time I am lucky but I’m always finding myself exhausted running from one end of the school to the other chasing my classes. And there would be this one class that I keep missing because I don’t remember where and when it is on. I have not attended this class at all but I know I need it to graduate. It’s like a void, a frustration, a feeling of incompleteness. I haven’t had this dream lately, but I know I have dreamt it a few times already. I wonder what it could mean or if it means anything at all?

Just some randoms:

1. I really can’t believe how much has happened in a span of just one week. Sure it started out low but soon enough I got busy with other things to dwell on it for too long, which saved me - in a way. By midweek I think I’ve buried all the crapness deep enough for me to walk on unaffected. Instead I’ve been washed over by a more happier aura, here’s why:

2. I’ve signed up for the gym. Since my membership had expired some 12 months ago, I thought I’d never join up again. It’s just way too expensive, but my lifestyle was taking a nose dive and I could feel it in my thighs. It was a choice between money and obesity so I joined up the first chance I could. Even if it is the middle of winter. I don’t think my accellerating weight gain could wait till summer.

I haven’t really changed my zealous eating habits - that’s something I’m going to have to work on next. But I’ve come to enjoy going to the gym not just to lose weight, I’m just glad to see my heart pumping again as I thought it had given up on me completely. So yay to a more active lifestyle (note: I didn’t use the word "healthier" - that part is still in the making).

3. I’ve broken through the mundane at work this week. So that’s always exciting. To be out of the office for just a few hours could make me break into a victory dance. Especially when it ends with lunch along the harbour. I also had the opportunity to interview this week. We were recruiting Arboriculture teachers and to tell you the truth, I’ve never seen a bunch of men so passionate about trees before.

4. I’ve never really been a business minded person. I loved studying business and I think I’d be more than fulfilled to work as part of a large organisation than to run my own business. But somewhere between Japan and Korea a very good business prospect was conceived. This could be just another one of my many brilliant ideas that has never materialised - but we’ll see. The more we talk about it, the more exciting it gets, but are we really committed to take it through?

5. I am making the switch. Yup, by tomorrow I will be a Mac convert. I bought myself the gorgeous Macbook that I’ve been eyeing for the longest time. My LG LM50, as loyal as it has been, is approaching the end of its rope - so it’s time to say goodbye.

It has been a busy week with alot of distractions, alot of new hope, excitement.. I hope it spills through to the coming week.

… I can’t get over it.

test

We’re now back in Tokyo… our airport experiences have just been crazy. We were stopped for every security check there is and there was an hour wait in line for customs. Things like that kinda makes me want to go home.

I called my mother again from the airport today and I found myself crying (i’m not usually this emotional - homesick, maybe?). She asked me what was wrong and in between sobs, all i could tell her was that my luggage was so heavy.. which is true. I was lugging around 27 kilos up, down and around the subway. Both Korea and Japan have these really annoying bumps on the ground that kept making my luggage trip.

Well this marks the end of our Korea trip. It wasn’t great but it wasn’t so bad either. I’ll write about it in more detail next time.